Old Files: Limbo

Old Files: Limbo

I saw this going differently. Flirting with idea of numbness, the hardest to resist. I knew it  wasn’t natural but I fell for it . The reality of everything was no longer, I felt beyond floating.. Stuck but aware, that’s the hardest to deal. Dealing with so much pain and handling on your own is dangerous. It ’s humbling but soul searching. Sometimes its just too much , I can’t lie I’ve flirted with silence, asleep at best. The less I try the further I float, stagnant but aware. I know that I’ve changed. But no longer am I afraid.

Waiting to Exhale

Waiting to Exhale

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I suddenly had the urge to breath. Exhaling in peace .

Calming the atmosphere shifted in the night. Moonlight emerging from the shadows. I figured the day would come soon . Stagnated in moving forward within this decision that has been made.

Why do you pity yourself? It’s not absolutely sure when this will come about, I feel you are near. I hear the songs of your energy.. vibrating through my mind. I feel you in the shadows of the moonlight; energies of the most high. I will hear the truth of the matter soon, and you will understand. Shifting perspectives of your concerns.

935

935

935 Letting Go 

I’ve decided to let go of the residuals of my past. I still have flashing thoughts that go by during the day, but it never stays . I am actually in the space of loving myself more.. trusting God more. It’s not the easiest but truly I trust the plans of my manifestations, and it will be lovely.

I am refreshing my memory of what I love. Renewing life in every way that brings me empowerment. What I lost was painful, but it  helped me grow and with pain grew a queen. Trust in the plans of your dreams. Follow your intuition and do not sway from any places that make you feel uneasy. Find peace in yourself; love and honor your emotions and release them. Your life is renewed , Namaste. 

*Angel Number 935 is a message that your life changes are supported by the angels and Ascended Masters, and you are to trust that they are the right changes for you to make.

Off Of You

Off Of You

I searched for this closure so many times, and honestly I’m not afraid to let go. I did this before but I let you come back in, and I played myself. I thought you’d change for you and not just to impress me. In agony of trying to forget what we shared but I never could. I don’t want to continue to stay here and be depressed over a man who makes these promises just to keep me here ! Waiting like a fool and I refuse to do this any longer. I have been dragged and humiliated when I needed you the most.

They don’t know how many times behind closed doors in agony . I had never cried so much and felt so empty; and you’ve taken the best parts of me and you still didn’t think it  was enough. And I feel so dumb , investing in someone who never changed. Your ways of confusion and issues became my own and I lost myself. I only became a product of you , and you took whatever I had left in my soul. I have been broken since I met you for years. 

Opaque

Opaque

I couldn’t forget the thoughts. 

Drives me crazy especially at 3am.

It  was only me who fell abrupt . 

Promises only charmed me so far. I think it’s weird how we meet many people in our life , and they leave the biggest impact on your life. But only fate chooses if they stay or leave. Make you the happiest or broke you. But why is it  … when everything seems to be crashing in flames , the universe sends you a person exactly what you needed. Theres no rule book to how we come in contact with our little blessings, so we take what we can . Some accept half of the blessing, probably distraught is what keeps them. And these people come and change your energy , your process , but why?

I’ve questioned this so many times. “Why is it that we take anything we can get to survive this mess?”, we don’t care about the consequences if we accept it  , we love unwillingly. We give back a piece of us to them. Transferring energy , in love .